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Friday, March 30, 2007


i want chew yingyin to cheer up and be her usual bubbly self!

i feel sad that yy is sad.
i feel that i'm a horrible friend, not being there for her then.
i'm sure all things will tide over yy!
this post is dedicated to you, for comforting me when i was sick and going to GO with me, for scanning your math fa to me, for going with me to ms leong when i was crying my bloody eyes out, for being patient and understanding like i have never been with you.
i didn't even know that she was hurt so bad; she was always happy in school, regardless of whether she is happy or sad inside.
this thing really affected her, whatmore it was one day before bio.
but she's real strong, chewyingyin is really strong, and she's going to get through this, all of her, including her orange crumpler, and emerge smiling of it all.
chewyingyin when you read this, smile! remember, when you're weak, you're strong, similarly, when you're strong, you're weak.
you're strong, chewyingyin, because you have all of us rooting for you, every minute of the day, until this thing passes.
its no longer important that we've known each other for only four months.
what's important is that chewyingyin, i want you to smile!


i love you loads, yy. we all do.

gave my heart */ on 11:15:00 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007


currently doing MATH PT, and falling asleep. -_-
sheryl tan is at my house and she is eating a nugget.
we're both sick of the relationships of shapes and geometry.
and jenny is happily shopping at suntec. ><
blah.
blah maths.
we still have to do our NE message.
and cut out a polygon shape.
oh well.
back to MATH PT.
but first i'll eat my nugget as well.

gave my heart */ on 2:45:00 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007


"GOD DOES NOT LIKE A GRUMBLING HEART"

- yes, that is the phrase that saved me. i've decided that whatever i do, i will do it willingly.

"IT IS MY OWN CHOICE, AND MY OWN RESPONSIBILITY"

- that was from my mum, and this is another important phrase that has knocked sense into me.
If i have decided to do something, i will do it, and accept the consequences.


i think i have really thought it through.
its magical, how a prayer can make me well again.
i've decided that whatever difficulties and break-downs i face in the future, i will do one thing:
say a short prayer.
and yes,
i'm happy again. not happy because it is the holidays, but because i have understood the true meaning of how to live my life and how to commit things that i cannot handle to God.
i think i've realised what it means to be a Christian.


gave my heart */ on 11:05:00 PM


what's my problem?
ah.
i really do not know.
i keep having mood swings these days. like, i just had one a minute ago.
and bad. it was targeted at my mum. this time about holiday free time.
a few days ago i was depressed about math.
and now, all i can think of is play play play. free time free time free time.
i think i'm hopeless.
i can't even decide what i want to do in a mere one week of holidays.
what more my life?
i can't set my mind down to focus on revision, to study, to imnprove math.
and this is getting tougher day by day.
i can feel my mental strings snapping at awkward times, at times when i don't even want to.
i think there is too much going on in my life.
trying to be good in stuff i think i'm good at, failing and blaming myself.
trying to create a good class blog, carry out surveys on time, let poon be satisfied with her class chair, but again i keep failing.
and its not just my studies and my responsibilities.
its the distractions.
the shows, the serials, sims, everything. the exhilaration of the start of the holidays, the unbalanced mind i have.
it takes just one holiday to get my cycle upset.
i don't know what on earth i was doing just now, shouting at my mum about the timetable I PLANNED for MYSELF.
yes I PLANNED IT.
so what on earth am i unhappy about?
be realistic priscilla.
you cannot aim to finish watching hana kimi, AND play sims, AND want to revise.
its choices priscilla.
why am i able to think sensibly now and not just now?
if i had this calm and rationale mind just now, this whole tirade i've started would not exist.
if i can cure myself of this terrible mood swing, i will stop making people hurt.
i will stop deceiving and hurting myself.
i will stop thinking and focusing on unimportant things at the wrong time.
okay.
i need to pray quietly. now.

gave my heart */ on 10:27:00 PM